k1-night:

You said, I haven’t changed since I was16-years old. So I came back to the place 16 years-old me would turn to, when you said such bullshit. You saying that just made my day miserable. You, acting like it was cool, or badass, or whatever to judge a woman, solely based on looks, to treat her like she was nothing more than meat to you. I was willing to give you a chance to make up for lost time, to see the good in you again, but all I could see was the same old, same old bastard that distroyed me, my hopes and my self-acceptance. The truly sad thing is, that I realized, how low my feeling of self-worth was, if I ever thought that you’re the best that I could possibly have. You touched my thigh. And it was still electric, sparks flying, but it was that, because of me… Not because of you! And now I realize, that you and I… It was magic, because of me! The love I felt was the love towards feeling like I can be vulnerable, and I can be free in my toughts and experiences with another human being. And truth be told, I only had that a couple of times after you. Yesterday you destroyed me again a little. But you haven’t anticipated in doing so was that I was much stronger now. That you, trying to insult me, and break me, only made me despise you even more. I am worth more. And I’m not afraid to say it now. I have given you many chances, and love and acceptance that you have never gotten neither before, nor after being with me, and that’s why I deserve much better than the selfish and pityful person you still are. I have savior complex. I wanted to save you, so many times. And each time I’ve failed in doing so, I blamed myself. I’m not gonna do that anymore. Goodbye. This is the end of it all. I hope I’ll never meet you again.